Hi, I'm the alter-ego of Nabila.
I'm feeling dark.
Only God knows..
I'm freaking tired in making society happy.
Society never pleased me, so should I?
Only God knows..
I'm freaking tired in pretending that every things are just right.
Even when I feel things are gone wrong.
Only God knows..
I'm freaking tired in fixing and being so perfect outside.
But still, I can't build myself back inside.
Only God knows..
I'm freaking tired in being so honest, so hard-working, so perfectionist.
When everyone just can't see it, or even don't want to see it.
Sometimes, people know or pretend to just-don't-know..
I'm just an ordinary girl who tried everything, and did everything.
And society are just a bunches of people who didn't see anything and didn't care anything.
Voices in my head told me, "Hey, are you tired of all these tiring things you've done, even when people just don't CARE of you, and just don't want to? Just leave, those are not your responsibility anymore. Just leave and be happy like old days."
And then I answered, "They may bring me down, but I won't fall. I am me, and that I should be. People don't need to direct me, I have my own direction. SOCIETY CAN NOT CHANGE ME TO BE THE OTHER PERSON I DON'T WANT TO BE. I won't leave, but that doesn't mean I am a society-slave. If I leave, people won't care. Things are seems right, but feels so wrong. Live with it and deal with it. Being happy is rare nowadays. It's my consequences."
"They shoot me down, but I won't fall. I'm a titanium." -- David Guetta ft. Sia (Titanium)
